Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Pastures are always greener on the other side

Have you noticed that kids never want or treasure what they have in their hands...be it food or toys or anything else? They will always crave and want what their friends have. Helena does that...when she sees us eating, she'll want our food...when she sees another kid with a toy, she'll drop hers and wants to take the other.

I believe this is basic human behaviour. Yes, we try to curb ourselves from displaying such feelings or behaviour when we are older but deep down inside, we still feel like that. Actually it gets worse when we are older. Not only we revel in such thoughts in material possessions, such emotions are also present in human relationships. A couple of good friends and I were talking about relationships, marriage and affairs the other day. We all came to a conclusion - people go into affairs not because they cannot help themselves. People go into affairs because they want it to happen. There is no such things as "I cannot help myself" or "I was seduced".....it happened because deep down inside they want it to happen. They want it because they want to have a taste or feel of another person. The one at home is never sexy enough or the one at home is never gentle enough....the one outside is always better....We also came to a conclusion. That men at a certain age (rule of thumb is about the late 30s to early 40s) will definitely get themselves into an affair. Even if the ultimate act did not materialise, the thought will definitely be their minds. It's just in the DNA. In human behaviour. The crave for something new, the want for somebody else's possession.

I have linked this entry to Earth Squatter's latest entry on 人就是那么贱. I believe this is true. People are just so 贱 at times. The one we cannot have it is always the sweetest, the most beautiful and the best.....

Monday, December 24, 2007
Performance Evaluation 2007

Another year is ending....another year being added to my age....another year to look back to see what i have learnt and experienced...

2007 has been a memorable year....full of exciting adventures and life turning points....2007 is the year where I discovered myself and the year where I finally understood what I like and crave.....

Memorable events in 2007:
1. Career Choice - whether to leave my company or not...(trust me, it was not an easy decision to make....but ever since I've made my choice, I've never once regretted it)
2. The Shanghai & Japan Business trip - The Taiji lessons as well as the japanese working culture/environment was fun!
3. Self-discovery - that I am not a good person afterall...in fact, I'm terrible...
4. Watching Helena grow up.....she's soo cute now....she talks and is quite an entertainer....

Anyway, this is my Self-Assessment of the SMART goals which I made in 2007:

(1=Excellent; 2=Distinguished; 3=Notable; 4=Needs Improvement; 5=Unsatisfactory)


1. Not to spend so much time shopping, instead spend more time with baby Helena - I think I have achieved only a '3' for this item. Although I try to spend the weekend as much as possible with her, somehow it's just not enough. She still prefers her grandparents and even the maid to me at times, which makes me extremely sad....I actually love it when she wants to stick with me...

2. To be more pious and not so lazy - This is literally 'Oh God!'. I believe I am a '5' for this. I have not been very regular in my church going. Somehow, I always miss a couple of sundays each month....;-o

3. To bring Cookey out more often - Once again, I am a '5' for this.

4. To exercise!!! - This is a total failure...not done at all....(besides the taiji lessons which i took up, I had not exercised at all!)

5. To take a course in make-up - Not done

Overall assessment - 5!!! Unsatisfactory!

I gotta be better in 2008!

Hele's Christmas Present

Many have always said that parents always give their children what they couldn't achieve or get during their childhood. I think it's very true....

This is what i got for Hele for her Christmas present...well actually it came as a surprise....and I sorta won it in a company ballot exercise. A SLK Convertible.....

All for $50 bucks.....boy was she excited.....