Tuesday, August 09, 2005
My Dreams

I'm not sure if it's due to work stress or an overactive mind but I have been having the same recurring ''dreams". Day-dreams to be exact....

I have always been pretty ambitious & competitive. When I was younger, I wanted to get into the good schools, get good grades, get a good job...climb through the ranks...be a Manager of some sort...earn a good $10K per month by the time I turn 35-40...own a condo...a nice continental car...graet no. of branded goods.....blah blah blah...you get the drift...I guess most Singaporeans plan their lives that way. These days however, I just wanna have a simple life. Own a little shop where I can tend with my other half, do some bimbotic, mindless tasks like flower arrangement or help out in some packaging details...eg design CD covers, collage for other half's clients....Cookey and Helena can be with me and we can tend the shop together. It's just so much more fun and meaningful...at least I'm doing things which I enjoy.

Alas! Life in Singapore is just so practical...it's so difficult to leave whatever security one has now to pursue something else. There are so many what-ifs to address and risks to calculate....is that what life is reduced to? A calculated risk? I am torn between giving up a lifestyle which I have grown used to and a simple, non-materialistic life. Well, whether one likes it or not, people measure success by money, assets and materialistic possessions (the no. of LV bags, On- Pedder shoes, Cartier watches or even techie stuff like the latest models of HPs, MP3 players and palm pilot). It's just so competitive!