Thursday, June 21, 2007
Decisions....decisions....

Just received some comments from some friends that I have not been posting much.... gotta apologise for that...I didn't know I had so many readers & Hello???!! Mind you...afterall...when i look at the comments section...there weren't much!!??? So do me a favour guys...if you are one of my silent supporters, do try to at least let me know that I'm being read....*shhesshhh*

Well...anyhow, I admit I have been deliquent on posting updates of my life....too much happening right now... too much going on in my life....too much work....working like 12 hours on average if not more....too many decisions to be made and too much happening at the same time....so much so that there were times where I felt my mind is exploding.... Physically...emotionally.....

Somebody once told me that whatever it is...do what the heart tells me...but what happens when the heart and the mind tells you different things? Do we just do a simple Pro and Con analysis and weigh the differences or do we look at other facets of the issue?

Someone told me (yet again....) that I think too much of how other people feel and think about me...I have this heavy guilt conscience that is overpowering and is dragging me down....this same person also said that I have to think for myself cos' nobody will be doing that for me...afterall, we are all pawns on the chess board....and once one game ends, another set of players / chess comes into play....the old ones just gets forgotten.....this reminds me of Shakespeare...."the world's is but a stage"??

Well....Sometimes, I feel as if I just wanna hide away...run away from everything....ride free and fly far and high.... and not think of anything at all......

Is that so bad?