Saturday, September 08, 2007
The Wrong Side of 30

A friend recently commented that I have to seize the day and treasure the time I have now before I reached the wrong side of 30. Of course, this friend didn't know (or was just being very very nice) that I have passed the big '30'.

Looking back, however, I feel that being past 30 has brought me more in my life.

Before 30, I was meek and afraid of speaking up. I was not confident nor assured of what I have, be in in work or my personal life. I didn't take charge of my own life...rather I went with the flow....going where the wind took me. I didn't have much of a view of my own....instead I look to others for direction and advice. On appearance, I was shy and never confident of how I looked. Yeah...I was still vain and all, but I was never comfortable of how I looked or how I presented myself to others. This was especially so after the birth of Hele. Things really went on a downhill and the self-esteem hit rock-bottom. With my extra flab and fats, I felt awful all the time.

Today I am past 30. Somehow everything has changed. I am more confident of myself, during and off work. In my current capacity, I could give advice and direction to my people and it feels good. It feels even better when you know that they do appreciate it becuase they come up and tell you so. I know I look good and it gives me the confidence to talk and interact with people I never felt comfortable with. Yeah, going over 30 has given me alot in life...maybe it's because of the accumulated life experiences or maybe I just started to wake up on the right side of the bed.